Midwife visit yesterday

It seemed like ages since I last saw my midwife, well it kind of was ages. I mean with everyone in my house going thru colds, flus etc. it was about 6 weeks and that is just too long to go with out seeing Wendy. I really do think I am so blessed to have found her. I now am going to switch doctors by the way.... I will be seeing another male doctor but it is only one instead of the 3 that I see now. For those who know me know I hate seeing a male doctor....... I was told that this Dr. will not give me his opinion at all about me having a home birth, which is excellent because I am so sick of people telling me their opinion on it. If people don't agree with it they should just be quiet and bite their tongue right??? He will give me his honest opinion about the fibroid and if it is as huge and endangering as the others say it is. I am also hoping they can do a test on me called an A1C which will eliminate the 3 hour glucose test that I am suppose to take. You see I ALWAYS have to have the 3 hours test and they ALWAYS come back and tell me that everything is fine and I am just hypoglycemic. Which I tell them at the beginning of every pregnancy and no one really ever listens to me. But anyway, being hypoglycemic it is very very tough to stop eating at 7pm the night before the test and then go to the test, drink a sugary drink and then sit there for 3 hours with an empty stomach. Every time I have done this, I have gotten so dizzy, light headed and just irritable and then when it is time for me to eat I eat a very balanced meal with extra protein but yet my heart still races and it takes a long time to "come down" from the feeling. So really it is not fun at all. So this test that I am hoping he does is just to check your blood back like 3 months ago, I am not 100% sure on all the info so when I have it I will let you all know more.

On another note I have gone 3 weeks now and have not gained any weight. Which is ok with me and the midwife and doctors so I am not going to compiling at all. I do eat, but I eat in little portions a few more times a day. In 30 weeks of pregnancy I have gained a total of 16 pounds. I was told by one of the doctors that he would be happy if I didn't gain any more weight considering my weight right now?????? Ouch kind of hurtful .Which is understandable, I don't care to gain that much more either but he could have said it a little nicer.. They baby is growing alot and is moving so much. If she would only move out of the breech position..... I do have exercised to do to get her to go head down so hopefully those will work.

I am getting more and more excited about the whole home birth thing. I can not believe I get to be in my own home and in my own bed when I have this little girl. I get to walk around as much as I want, I get to eat whatever I want, I get to wear what ever I want, I can have who ever I want with me, I mean I call the shots. I wont have a bunch of nurses coming in and out of my room to do some unnecessary stuff. I wont have to tell my "story' to 10 different nurses, I can have it as quiet as I want it and tell people to stay out if I want... Well we have less than 10 weeks left and I am slowly but surely getting ready for her arrival. Still need to do a lot of organizing and cleaning and I am trying to figure out (also freaking out alot about it) how to get it all done. I have tried this week to do as much as I can but I have been in so much pain its ridiculous. I have to paint Kdy and baby "Z's" room and get her crib and get that up. Have to find a bed for Ry I HAVE to get my kitchen finished, there is just SO much to do before she comes and I am trying not to freak out too bad.

What a pregnancy

I know it has been quite a while since I have been able to write something but trust me you would not of wanted to hear all of the negativity. OK maybe not all negativity but this pregnancy has not been as easy as my other two, that's for sure. This past Monday I got to spend 9 hours in the hospital just to be sent home telling me they can not find the source of my pain. I have had some really bad pains in my kidney area and then some in my vajay-jay area. They were able to explain the pain in the vaginal area but they did a lot of test for the kidneys and came up with nothing. They ruled out Kidney Stones, Kidney infection, a UTI, and something I called Hydronephrosis (which is a build up of urine in the kidneys) but I did get to go through ANOTHER pap and them checking my cervix and the best part was I had an audience to watch. I love interns! So I did however get to have a shot of morphine so ease the pain and that it did. I really don't know for how long because all I remember was well nothing. I slept after I got the shot...

I am going to go in tomorrow for more test and they think it maybe because of the baby and the fibroid pushing against my kidneys so we will see. To me that doesn't make sense but again I am not a doctor. I am not going to let any of this discourage me in anyway though. I will have a homebirth unless my midwife finds anything that could be at risk. I must say though it was pretty nice getting pampered that night. They were very nice nurses and they were bringing all kinds of great stuff, from warm blankets, to warm pack, to pudding and juice. ( that was when I was finally able to eat something) So I started to think oh maybe I should just be in the hospital where they are taking care of everything AND then I smelled the hospital gown, because I thought I had bad B.O. but then I realized it was the gown and not me and then I decided that homebirth would be SO much better than a hospital. LOL

What I have not mentioned yet is that I have 2 fibroids and one of them they are going to be checking every time I go in for my Dr.s appointment. It has grown a good size now so they are going to monitor it so it doesn't get in the way of the growth of the baby. I really can not believe that my other 2 pregnancies went by so good and this one just so much seems to happen. Not huge stuff but I have just had a lot of firsts with this one. I am feeling weird pains and I am ALOT more tired with this one than I was with the others. I could go on and on but I will spare you.

I am very excited however because my really good friend is throwing me a baby shower and I went to Target and Babies R Us to register and let me tell you, I had a blast. I went all pink. We never went all pink with Kdy because well at the time I was so against that color and we also did not want to have to buy all new stuff if we had a boy our second time so we kept a lot of the stuff neutral. But this time I had a blast registering for everything Pink...... I am even really excited to put this little girl in some ruffles and dresses, something I really regret not doing with Kdy.

Really?

Am I really having Braxton Hicks???? For me I usually never start having them until I am well into my 3rd trimester, usually around 32 weeks. Today, I have been having them A LOT..... Normally when I have them it is just a tightening along the me trying to catch my breath. Maybe that is not the best way to describe it but i just notice that my breathing is weird when I have them.. This time I am having a little pain with the braxton hicks, so it is very crazy.

We have been staying in a hotel for the past few days and I have been able to relax in the pool and would go into the hot tub for about 5 minutes at a time (don't worry, I didn't let my body temperature rise for all of you who want to yell at me) and was able to sit and float in the pool so I have not done anything but rest. She has been kicking but not as much as she usually does, well with the exception of last night. She decided to keep me awake for a few hours with what felt like somersaults.

So with all of this relaxing that I have been doing i thought I would be rejuvenated and ready to get a bunch of stuff done but I am absolutely EXHAUSTED. I was getting all the stuff ready to go in the hotel room and I am just ready to close my eyes and sleep for a few hours. Who knows I may just have to do that when I get back home...

Meaning of the name

OK I know I said I wasn't going to tell the name, and I still wont. But I want to share the meaning of it. We have been searching for the middle name for awhile. The first name we have known what it was going to be because she is being named after my Grandpa, but as far as the middle name goes we wanted it to just be revealed to us and when it was, there was a little light that went off and Ken and I both looked at each other an knew that was it.

So the meaning of our little girls name is: In covenant (agreement) with Gods will.

This says a lot about our live over the last year or so too. We finally feel that we are walking in Gods will and we have such a strong covenant with him so when this name was given to us I knew it was going to be a girl...

What else I learned at my Ultra Sound

OK so as you may know now we are having a girl. I must tell you I was crying and I believe
that if I didn't have my 2 BFF's with me, Ken would have been crying as well.
I don't know if we wanted to cry because he was hoping for a boy or if he was happy. She was 100% sure because well there was not a "kickstand" (as my mom calls it) and we got a good look
at the "va- jay jay". We also learned that my due date will now be April 28 not April 19..
Also, we learned that I have fibroids, I guess its not that big of a deal (they are pretty tiny) and with my estrogen and the babies estrogen well, it is inevitable that they would be growing.
I will find out more at my next Dr.s appointment. We were able to see the heart which was
very good and even though she did not want to cooperate we were able to see everything
but the hands and fingers. The ultra sound tech wants me to come back in a couple
weeks for another one, why really I don't know. She says she wants to get a good look
at the hands and fingers.... Anyway, we are keeping the name a secret so don't try and
pry is out of me, because you know I will give in. LOL

ITS A .....................................

GIRL!!!!!!!

Lots of firsts

with this pregnancy. It is so funny but everyone I talk to says its because I am in my 30's now so everything is going to be so different. At first I really didn't believe them but I must say I am a believer now. Now this maybe TMI for some of you so I apologize in advance. One thing that just happened was, the baby kicked my bladder and I peed my pants..... (I am pretty embarrassed but had to share) I was trying to wait it out since I have been peeing every 5 minutes (or so it seems) and I thought if I wait a little longer I would be OK, well I think that my bulging bladder was getting in my little peanuts way... I tell ya, it was a very weird feeling but I have learned my lesson, go to the bathroom as soon as you have the urge.

Also, the other night I had heartburn for the first time too... I know, I know two kids already how did I not have heartburn with them??? I really don't know how I managed to go heartburn free, but I am so glad I did. I tell you what, I was miserable. I didn't get it until I laid down to fall asleep, and let me tell you I was exhausted, but I was awake for a long time with it and was not a happy person.. I do think that it caused my throat to be sore which I am still dealing with that today.

I have also been so much more hormonal with this pregnancy. I mean so hormonal that I will cry for absolutely the stupidest thing. I am not just talking a little tear here and there I am talking, a full out sob fest. There is one day that I just laid in bed and cried.... and cried..... and cried. When I was pregnant with my other two children I would sit there and almost brag that my pregnancies were so good. All of those crazy things that everyone else was going through in their pregnancies.......... Well I laughed at and said thank you Jesus its not me. Well guess what, it is me this time...

I, however, am embracing every part of this pregnancy. I would not change a single thing and I thank God that I am carrying this baby and I thank God for this miracle every single day. So a lot of this stuff I have learned to just laugh at, well with the exception of the bloody nose last night. That is another first. I have had a lot of nose bleeds with this one. I even have a humidifier upstairs and downstairs and I have still been getting them. Last night it took a while for it to stop but it finally did 20 minutes later.... So didn't laugh too much about that one, but all of these things I am not complaining about one bit, I am just so thankful that I get to experience them because I know in 14 more weeks it will not just be for nothing.